36 CRAZYFISTS bitterness the star (2002) 01. Turns to Ashes 02. One More Word 03. An Agreement Called Forever 04. EightMinutesUpsideDown 05. Slit Wrist Theory 06. Bury Me Where I Fall 07. Dislocate 08. Two Months From A Year 09. Chalk White 10. All I Am 11. Ceramic 12. Circle the Drain 13. Left Hand Charity TURNS TO ASHES I'm not sick, I'm just a boy Sifting through the newfound lie And I'll be crawling through these ashes and dissecting all these flies Since the sun has died and it is still somewhat July Is this all the world has to offer? And I don't know how much you thought I'd be It turns to ashes on me One more piece inside these lines Deeper harms my disguise And everyone is different so everyone is sly And everything's still horrible since everyone still dies Is this all the world has to offer? And I don't know how much you thought I'd be It turns to ashes on me Is this all the world has to offer? It turns to ashes on me No one is safe ONE MORE WORD Spill it all over, just like you used to Reason to be strong But you don't like me, but you don't even know me I will save me, I will save me Please fight for me Shut down in another light, in a hole not yet sewn Words that make you sickened inside But you're sucked down in a steady strife and you bleed without halo I can tell now, I can tell now Please fight for me Shut down you don't know us all Shut down you don't know us all Shut down you don't know us all Shut down It's all inside, so far It's all inside One more word, I'm asking you to come and get it You don't want to wake up and kiss it goodbye Please fight for me Shut down you don't know us all Shut down you don't know us all Shut down you don't know us all Shut down It's all inside, so far It's all inside, so far AN AGREEMENT CALLED FOREVER Cave in and try to take away All that I have, all I betray... So much damage I've done Well this I know, that I just fail Turn me on me Turn me on me 'Cause this is everything I've stripped away I've stripped away This is me, well this I know This is me, well is it? Well the youth has certainly gone away And at times I'd like to erase... Please don't see that I can't have loyalty 'Cause I just fail Turn me on me Turn me on me 'Cause this is everything I've stripped away I've stripped away And I have tried to sit you down and take the fall Look you in the eye and tell you it all And I have tried to sit you down and take the fall To look you in the eye and tell you it all... I fail 'Cause this is everything I've stripped away I've stripped away This is me, well this I know This is me I fail... 'Cause this is everything I've stripped away I've stripped away EIGHTMINUTESUPSIDEDOWN Nothing new for you now, how can you bury? Filling up all your eyes and never swearing With your embrace I receive, receive the enemy Is this the Christ that you need or not the Christ that you need? Where do you gain your strength? One look and you will know Who chokes on boxes of fucking pills? Choking on your thoughts of what used to be She's clothed with the silk Waiting to be drained dry And the echoes will come They'll come all around And drain us all...dry They'll drain us all dry As we gag on the dust of the everyday I choke on one more reminder you know I'm alone Where do you gain your strength? I wish I knew... Where do you gain your strength? I wish I knew... She's clothed with the silk Waiting to be drained dry And the echoes will come They'll come all around And drain us all...dry They'll drain us all dry Faith has led the way...dismantle SLIT WRIST THEORY With the absence of eye, I can start to bleed again... With the color of hearts it seems like you wear right thin And as it falls from your mouth, it seems like you needed it more Well I can still ask for more, I will still ask for more... Get the fuck out, stay the fuck out It makes me sick (I'm alright) Slit wrist theory, stains us all... Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow It seems like a runaround Words that won't matter And as it falls from your mouth it seems like you needed it more And I will color you all red, I will color you all...red Get the fuck out, stay the fuck out It makes me sick (I'm alright) Slit wrist theory, stains us all... Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow Braided conversation Get the fuck out, stay the fuck out It makes me sick (I'm alright) Slit wrist theory, stains us all... And caved the fuck in, and bashed the fuck in, it's so old Slit wrist theory, stains us all... Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow Lace me up, lace me up I'm still looking for these angels in the snow Lace me up... BURY ME WHERE I FALL Come brush away these fists and I will tell you everything I hope you know how long I'm lacking So carve my name and take me to the strength under it all Then bury me where I fall Push and pull like sex machines, like sex machines Push and pull like sex machines, like sex machines Questioning if I should even be here I won't make that same mistake And taking to bed all these things that I hate I will complain, I will complain A bleeding light has made us all just want to wash away And best believe I want it blinding Under it all I black out holes and glorify disguise Still draining me from all this strife Push and pull like sex machines, like sex machines Push and pull like sex machines, like sex machines Questioning if I should even be here I won't make that same mistake And taking to bed all these things that I hate I will complain, I will complain Stare at the sun Staring at the sun... Questioning if I should even be here I won't make that same mistake And taking to bed all these things that I hate I will complain, I will complain... Bury me where I fall DISLOCATE I taste words you divide, want to cover up Temporary lies And I see how you pressed your skin on limb How much thicker it is, how much thicker Mark my words Voice comes through the mesh, a sign of safety Temporary smile Cross my heart, I'll protect my own How much thicker it is, how much thicker Mark my words Dislocate yourself And this is enough poison for me Spilling the guilt TWO MONTHS FROM A YEAR Am I allowed to breathe Am I allowed to counter Words that don't believe And words that don't matter And soon I'll sigh And forget them all Only sometimes Am I allowed.....breathe And someone should have told me That you would be here But you weren't you anymore You weren't you... But you will, you will, you will, you... Soon I will fall like the wall And how it feels will be horror Do you hate it? 'Cause you weren't you anymore You weren't... But you will, you will, you will, you... Soon I will fall like the wall All around fractured view of life I tear down all these idols And I'll make my transformation You'll feel better.....right? But you will, you will, you will, you... You can't scar me...you can't You can't scar me...you can't How the fuck does it feel? Soon I will fall like the wall And how the fuck does it feel? And how the fuck did you figure? CHALK WHITE Pieces of you, spread all over, torn in two Forward/backward Save yourself, from nothing, from no one Forward/backward You better get yourself out of it You better get yourself out of it You think you're right but it ain't right You think it's right but it ain't right Cease the slide, use the talent God gave you Forward/backward You better get yourself out of it You better get yourself out of it You think you're right, but it ain't right You think it's right, but it ain't right Forward/backward Forward/backward ALL I AM Just when you need it Never see it in your torn world And seems like a plastic world One just like you, one just like... All I am is all I'll be Can't be much more than me A deep-end failing tragedy All I am is all I'll be Broke, believe it, deceiving In your world And I knew him, someone falling One just like you, one just like... All I am is all I'll be Can't be much more than me A deep-end failing tragedy All I am is all I'll be Take inside and be more careful Defeat loss and glare at fall To get you off where I'm going... Following all down Follow it all down So I've got you wrapped up...inside So I've got you...inside And plastic world, crumbles down... One just like you.....just like All I am is all I'll be Can't be much more than me A deep-end failing tragedy All I am Take inside and be more careful Defeat loss and glare at fall To get you off where I'm going... Following all down CERAMIC Soon I will be falling down The way I always And I remember falling And I remember crawling... Still I'm falling... Have you come down From all the peeling? 'Cause I remember holy And only God can save me Still I'm falling... This is the last time I'll speak of holding you Take this from me and take it before it dies 'Cause this is the last time I'll speak of...holding you Still I'm falling... This is the last time I'll speak of holding you And you get up and you fall down You get up and you fall down You get up and you fall away You get up and you fall down You get up and you fall down You get up and you...you get up and you...fall CIRCLE THE DRAIN I've got myself deep this time Tons of frustration builds in mine And it shows me nothing It shows me nothing at all Circle the drain Backward solace right from your side And you sit and criticize Shows me nothing It shows me nothing at all Circle the drain I don't need it... I don't It shows me nothing It shows me nothing at all Circle the drain I don't need it...I don't LEFT HAND CHARITY A classroom circle slowly drifts on... I knew right then I'd carve your name, so I... Save your charity it's gone too far now as it seems I drive by your scenery... All the while I died that night... Please come back, tell me it's alright And save your charity it's gone too far now as it seems... Little boys that misbehave And I want to look you in your eye... I want to look you in your eye... Want to look you in your eye I want to look you in your eye