CHIMAIRA LYRICS This Present Darkness (2000) 1. This Present Darkness 2. Painting The White To Grey 3. Divination 4. Sphere 5. Lend A Hand 13. Empty 14. Silence 69. Satan's Wizard 1. This Present Darkness In this present darkness I fall upon broken knees Crawl through weight depression haunted by and unborn ghos tI'll never know your fears Never see me in your eyes Curse the one that stole your name from Me this is the monster that they create from second of your conception Minutes leading to death sentence will shackle me and turn eyes red I will constantly endure the pain of your creation How can I lie awake grace How can I lie awake my love Will stay dead in this present darkness I fall 2. Painting The White To Grey Face I am nothing face Complete by sarcastic tastes What a waste I think I'd rather die Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life Always situations I can never hide Crying tears of anger, hate Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive" A desperate cry for something else to justify I'm in a daze caused by pain A failing force that wants to change Painting the white to grey Numb body shivering Blood dripping from the skin Painting the white to grey Plastic always drastic A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through the attic I know somewhere out there someone cares Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think it's time repair These scars will never clear I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day maybe being sane I might have tried before...but I locked the door Now I need a reason to unlock it I'm in a daze caused by pain A failing force that wants to change Painting the white to grey Numb body shivering Blood dripping from the skin Painting the white to grey Cutting and popping I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping Lying and crying I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying... I take dying I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did Cold In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried to die 3. Divination I always searched for an answer for my convictions A troubled mind at 15 demonic visions I saw you rape dand beaten Who the hell is this monster that surounds my brain I try to make some sense of this, try to break the mold Divination A power I wish I did not have now I wake with sweat and bood scars of you dad choke I wake from this nightmare to find it's the truth Tell me now father what did we do I'll never understand your actions...never speak to you Don't try and correct your mistakes never trust in you Fake fucker, fake father die. 4. Sphere Crawling back up from the floor now I look above me and there you are I see your smiling face so pure, its gold Reaching your hand out to touch mine Perhaps all I needed was your smile A nice compliment or two Where were you a few weeks ago? When I was wanting to die I felt so worthless But you saved me Watching me almost fall under You were with him I was with her Wanting each other more then life A kiss away from being perfect Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two I hate my thoughts now I'll leave her alone to live in bliss Your my savior, my dream come true Why Trying to figure out a way I'll lick your wounds, I'll heal your sores I can never face my past Not together I felt so sick inside Death will come very soon I tear as we drift away Picture me dead would you cry 5. Lend A Hand You are God's most beautiful creation From the moment i set my eyes upon you I knew i wanted to be near To feel your arms wrap around me And to share myself with you Would be nothing but ecstasy Knowing you will make me whole again(-L) Then she said No I cried out to help you My friend who does nothing I watched you high i watched you low Never falling to far I am glad to have been here To help you get through her I know i didn't fulfill, but i helped somehow I'll take your pain Create with me Chim was a way for you to breathe I hope it was enough To help you through this war called love Take our hand Before you leave One more time, reaching our dreams We feel incomplete I know one day You'll solve that mystery And make them feel The way you did me Lend a hand, AE To you my friend 13. Empty I thought I knew you My dream had come true Look back, don't crack Your stares are empty now I am still here I won't crack It's all coming back My thoughts of the fading you Reach through, make you Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore Loss of feeling now I take the pain So it's all right now I'm still a justified hole in your eyes A pupil never a master A crumble of dirt to the land Take the blood right out of my hands as you Realize it's your blood Blood My eyes see noones empty face I see a second coming of the land I was born with the fear of love You made that fear a dream Goddless I see me reaching for the sun Try forever to Reach the sky I'm empty Can't find you I am still here It's all coming back My thoughts of the fading you Reach through, make you Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore Failure 14. Silence I am the one breaks all This misery you call your life I am the one who will carry you To an altar of joy Follow me Flee from this Except nothing but the best I will hide all your pain Resort to the unknown with Silence The way I will keep Silence From letting you flee You are the one who changed me To a quivering mess You are the one who stopped me From doing all I can Now's your time Let me in Let me in your functioning mind I will hide all your pain Resort to the unknown with Silence The way I will keep Silence From letting you flee I feel your stench So warm I'm home Let me stay And feel you more I come All over now Where do I go from here Leave me behind Never again bitch don't even try Silence your mouths you whore 69. Satan's Wizard