STAIND dysfunction SUFFOCATE I feel nothing Longing for something Relax take a minute to take your clothes off show me what your made of Drugs To soothe me All Alone Leave me here I'm dying All Alone Just kick me in the face All Alone All alone and trying All Alone I Suffocate I'm not gifted Slightly twisted Try hard; try harder just to see if I can push you any further Drugs To soothe me Please believe, You save me rearrange me I can feel, You're feelings running through me Take away, My sorrow, my tomorrow Cradle me Suffocate JUST GO I'm kinda numb It's so distorted You've left me here with This damage that you've caused My tortured faces Those fucked up places In my memories None of them I've lost But I haven't been here long enough to know Every time I feel this I just loose control Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful I wish that this would just go It's kinda sick I feel dirty It's kinda tragic I'm kinda insecure But I know That I'm not the only One that can fix Whatever's wrong I'm sure But I feel so numb From all I've become I'll take you down I feel so down I'm water while you drown You're lifted while I'm down I'm cancer in your womb I'm the needle in your spoon But Just Go With these fucking Lies All these fucking Lies ME I hear you talk about your family life I wish I knew just what that means I guess my mother never loved my dad And now I wear it on my sleeve My sister called me just the other day It felt so good to hear her voice My problem is I don't have much to say I guess she doesn't have a choice And I'm sorry Look at me I'm so pathetic Can't Believe I'm just an addict I never needed anyone to help me Im begging you To please come save me from myself Save me from my... My mother's always tried to change herself She never learned to let things be She doesn't know how bad that fucked me up Cause now she seems so fake to me But I Love Her You push me but I won't fall I've been programmed to take it all And shove it way down inside Like my father I'm so pathetic Can't believe I'm just an addict I try to be I'm failing at it Life to me Is just a habit I hear you talk about your family life I wish I knew just what that means RAW The pictures left with me won't fade These images effect me every day Cause of you I feel I don't deserve The life I see in her Just don't leave me...Raw Inside I'm so cold Inside I'm so cold I've never been someone who knows My choices haunt me everywhere I go Finally did something right for myself My life for you and no one else Just don't leave me...Raw I feel so cold I can't take this Raw MUDSHOVEL You take away I feel the same You take away I feel the same All the promises you made to me in vain I lost myself inside your tainted smile again Cause... You can feel my anger You can feel my pain You can feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these feelings They will bring you pain You can't take away Make me whole again I feel the betrayed Stuck in your ways And you rip me apart with the brutal things you say Can't deal with this shit anymore I just look away Cause... Mudshovel You take away I feel the same All these promises You promised only pain If you take away And leave me with nothing again Cause You will feel my anger You will feel my pain You will feel my torment Driving you insane I can't fight these feelings They will bring you pain You can't take away I'll be whole again Mudshovel HOME I force myself through another day Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything Right in my face And I try to be the one I can't accept this all because of you I've had to walk away From everything I'm afraid to be alone Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone I'm afraid to come back home Another sleepless night again Hotel room my only friend and friends like that just don't add up To anything And I try so hard to be Everything that I could never take away from you again I heard you say I cannot forget I live with regret I live through this I can't see through this I can't do this anymore A FLAT Trust in me can't trust I know, I don't believe it All my life so scarred What for, you can't conceive it Everything you fear I'll be, you couldn't live it I whisper in your ear So loud, why can't you hear it I'm OK All my faith is gone You think, I couldn't find it Pieces falling down Shattered, nothing behind it In my mind alone Lost here, I'm separated Crawl deeper in my hole Safe here, from what I've hated All the demons in my head won't leave me I know, I can hear them All the sacrifices made for nothing Don't show, can't believe in Wanna show you that I'm good for something I can't, you won't let me All your artificial words won't heal me Because you can't accept me And I hate myself And I hate my face And I hate my world And I hate my ways I'm not OK I'm OK CRAWL I'm so lonely You're so beautiful Not the only One who's pitiful Stretched and torn I lay here in pieces Craving all of your deadly vices Like to think that I'm not addicted But I guess I wear it well And I crawl, while you spit And I crawl, through your shit Here I am now Not a lot has changed Nothing better Everything's the same Late at night I can hear your voices Talking shit about all my choices You would think that you've known me forever Just because you know my name Everything falls apart SPLEEN Can't breathe Empty I give everything to you Can't breathe…shut up, shut up I feel there's nothing left to do Can't breathe…shut up, shut up I don't like today Take it all away Just like what you say I don't want you Kinda like the way Everything is gray Just like what you say I don't need you I don't look like you Do the things you do But I'm fucked up too I don't need you Can't breathe…shut up, shut up I feel you are what saves my soul Can't breathe…shut up, shut up I don't understand it you're killing this planet The scabs on her face it's a fucking disgrace I blame you Can't breathe Excess Baggage (Unlisted Track) Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them To you And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom From you And I may end a life, by what I hold inside All the things that I live with I can't easily hide And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for But you It's not easy to hide All this damage inside I'll carry you with me Until I'm not alive When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly? To you? I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with From you I'm so sick of this place This taste in my mouth Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for But you It's not easy to hide All this damage inside I'll carry you with me 'Til I'm not alive